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Confessions

by Alesana

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dafne kiyui this is my favourite album of the entire annabel trilogy, being the most chaotic of them. it did admittedly take a lot longer to digest and enjoy than the other albums. Favorite track: Fatal Optimist.
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1.
Have you ever actually seen yourself without a mirror? To slip through the cracks of the universe, my love so true, is my gift to you Trapped in a world that was dreamt by a madman, hallelujah! hallelujah! Little did he know his dreams would come true I’m on to you! I’m on to you! Think, if only he could see the gorgeous rage Then maybe he would never have bled ink on page An artist, he was so consumed by a world he saw in his mind a world sadistic with lies and panicking cries Our world is so callous and cold, empty and lost I’ll bleed for you, to change it all, I’ll die for you to save us all This could be our only chance This could be our only hope Lost in your passion, endless attraction, forever yours You make me feel like I’m invincible Love sings such a sweet ending Ballad of lust , anticipate the irresistible Changing the end means going back to where it all began If we survive we take control and start again You’ve lost your mind, tear the fabric of time itself?! Stay close to me, I will rewrite history for you Our world is so callous and cold, empty and lost I’ll bleed for you, to change it all, I’ll die for you to save us all This could be our only chance This could be our only hope Lost in your passion, endless attraction, forever yours You make me feel like I’m invincible Love sings such a sweet ending Ballad of lust , anticipate the irresistible As your hand drifts from mine Two hearts still intertwined Across both space and time Remember I am yours I am yours Remember I am yours Time seizes my hand Only a fool is never afraid Lost in your passion, endless attraction, forever yours You make me feel like I’m invincible Love sings such a sweet ending Ballad of lust, anticipate the irresistible Forever yours, irresistible Forever yours, you make me feel like I’m invincible Annabel please don’t go I’ll be fine, we’ll be fine
2.
The Acolyte 03:52
Dead and lost with tired faces, antiquated passion laid to rest Wake up! No smiles for the memories we have, rotting with the corpses of our past Please wake up! Here we stand left in the dark! Kick back! Here we are screaming for help! Strike back! Do you think that we have a fighting chance? Shall we dance on the wings of hope and together fly through the sky? We are not living for this! I will take back what is ours! Stand up coward! Dear God, scream it like you mean it! No time to rest for sleep beckons the weak Darling, please understand and listen, this is insane This can’t be it, I don’t think I am ready for goodbyes If you leave, if we try to finish what we began I don’t think I can bring you back So kiss me before you go and whisper three sweet words There must be something that I missed, pieces drift away I wish I could think outside of the box now, solve the riddle no stone will be left unturned with God as my witness I will find a way to slow, to beat the wheels of time I wake up beside you and we smile, oh foolishness Stand up coward! Dear God, scream it like you mean it! No time to rest for sleep beckons the weak Darling, please understand and listen, this is insane This can’t be it, I don’t think I am ready for goodbyes If you leave, if we try to finish what we began I don’t think I can bring you back So kiss me before you go and whisper three sweet words Shatter the hourglass Dissect the universe, tear through reality, rearrange the stars above Open your eyes and gaze the skies above a world that we have made Blood, sweat, and tears, ions and years We’re building a utopia Yet I still remain in this cursed place So far from my dreams This must be hell! I will escape! Burn it to the ground Tear it brick from brick Till there’s nothing left but a hole in the sky Darling, please understand and listen, this is insane This can’t be it, I don’t think I am ready for goodbyes If you leave, if we try to finish what we began I don’t think I can bring you back So kiss me before you go and whisper three sweet words Shatter the hourglass Dissect the universe, tear through reality, rearrange the stars above
3.
I’ve been here before am I losing my mind? Look at me, tell me I’m crazy We’re in danger Follow me and you’ll see things are not what they seem Take my hand or don’t you trust me? We are in danger and I’m the one to blame At the edge of man’s reason there exist designs to escape reality The tesseract calls to me Cosmic strings shall be mine to pull Failure met by failure Try again! Try again! Still she calls to me... Can I hold you closer and drown in your dreams? I promise fantasies can be more than words that we have buried alive The nightmare is real still I pray and beg for more I’m never closing my eyes Forever one with the night Hush sweet baby don’t say a word I’m ignoring destiny for reasons I can’t tell you We try to fool our minds How long do we wait for salvation? Is it a sin to wonder? Get off your knees! Failure met by failure Try again! Try again! She’s insane! Can I hold you closer and drown in your dreams? I promise fantasies can be more than words that we have buried alive The nightmare is real still I pray and beg for more I’m never closing my eyes Forever one with the night Can you hear me? Someone’s talking Can you see me? Someone’s watching Delusions of grandeur, where the hell am I? Save me from myself! ‘cause I can no longer play this morbid game Just when I thought it was over, here we go! Galaxies welcome me inside! I’m insane! Oh the horror! Oh the panic! Paranoid and deranged! I am a God! Psychotic and ashamed! Why! Why! Can you hear me? Can you see me? Can I hold you closer and drown in your dreams? I promise fantasies can be more than words that we have buried alive The nightmare is real still I pray and beg for more I’m never closing my eyes Forever one with the night I’m never closing my eyes Forever one with the night It was a dark and stormy night... I’ve traveled near and far, raced with all the stars now alone I’ll be, subtle tragedy If I had one more chance to just explore I would take your hand and do it all again
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The Goddess 04:29
My breath is slowly catching up to my mind after the crash Inhale, exhale Now open your eyes, see the wonder I’m telling you its unbelievable Did I lose myself? Am I still alive? Something isn’t right Am I just asleep or is this really happening to me? Tell myself I’m fine Get up on your feet, get up on your feet Answer me now! I never wanna leave because you feel like ecstasy A seduction becoming a part of me Damn you! Temptation, you’ve got a hold on me Stand up, walk away, don’t fall into the trap Illusion is best when you don’t try to fight back Give in to the pleasure, skin on skin I will take you places you’ve not been Elation is nothing but a myth unless you give in Did I lose myself? Am I still alive? Something isn’t right Am I just asleep or is this really happening to me? Tell myself I’m fine Get up on your feet, get up on your feet Answer me now! I never wanna leave because you feel like ecstasy A seduction becoming a part of me Damn you! Temptation, you’ve got a hold on me Stand up, walk away, don’t fall into the trap We choose the foolish of the world to astonish the wise The weak to embarrass the strong Nothing is impossible, we must hope for everything You don’t have to understand things for them to be You just have to believe in the unbelievable... My shadow hides in a place where the sun screams Come back, my tears Please just tell me what you are! Why can’t I feel? I can’t stay here I will never be anything but a fraud too scared to lose it all! I won’t let you go I don’t wanna leave because you are ecstasy I never wanna leave because you feel like ecstasy A seduction becoming a part of me Damn you! Temptation, you’ve got a hold on me Stand up, walk away, don’t fall into the trap I don’t wanna leave because you are ecstasy
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I’m having trouble breathing And if I don’t think fast I’m likely to find myself here for good Panic sets in as I start to question Why I see you standing there beyond the glass... Who said that we never would touch the speed of light? So far behind me, understanding Stars become rivers flowing backwards, oh yea! When did my heartbeat start to echo? Why are my thoughts now fading, drifting, yea! Twisting, yea! tearing, yea! bleeding , yea! Excuse me, are you a maniac? I am and I’m okay with that My moon, my stars, One last night, one final kiss Desire begging me not to go Goodbye my everything I’m terrified, I pull you near Making sure that you are real Open my eyes, it was all a dream Goodbye my everything An endless maze, a mobiüs labyrinth Exodus, redemption, where have you gone! And yet your gaze will not cease to burn into me! So far removed, so mockingly you observe Pariah, hypocrite! I will be free! And yet you will remain Excuse me, are you a maniac? I am and I’m okay with that My moon, my stars, One last night, one final kiss Desire begging me not to go Goodbye my everything I’m terrified, I pull you near Making sure that you are real Open my eyes, it was all a dream Goodbye my everything, goodbye my everything No! Futile screams go unheard Incarcerated by so many walls No! Imprisoned and banished within a nexus of my own design Don’t go back, don’t leave me Hide from the world, let’s not exist Please God kill me! Time is mocking me and now I’m fighting gravity, yea I’m destroying me, colliding worlds will set you free A straight line is not the shortest distance between two points! I know that now! But I’m afraid it might be too late! Will we come back from this? Hold my hand, I’m blind! Show me how, I’m lost! My God it’s beautiful The portal opens, time is slowing, no turning back now, ‘Bel My moon, my stars, One last night, one final kiss Desire begging me not to go Goodbye my everything I’m terrified, I pull you near Making sure that you are real Open my eyes, it was all a dream Goodbye my everything, goodbye my everything No! Futile screams go unheard Incarcerated by so many walls No! Imprisoned and banished within a nexus of my own design
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I welcome you to paradise! It’s what you wished for A mountain of filth haunted by tortured shrieks of the dead! I know you’ll love it here! Time stops and once again I’m stranded nowhere And yet again I’m so confused Why stop? It honestly can’t get much worse and I’m better off here than on my own Step right up, come one and all! I will be your host tonight! Welcome to the dreams of hell! You’re in for a wild ride! It’s strange but I feel right at home It’s odd but I don’t want to go Am I a fool? Am I crazy to want to stay? Do I belong? Another time, another place? This will do just fine Foolish mortal, what did you think? That you’d shackle the hands of time? And defeat the Gods themselves? Sweet vanity you’re my favorite sin! Swallow mountains and choke on them Then drown yourself on Lazarus Spread your wings and grab the sun Sweet vanity you’re my favorite sin! Pretty lady let’s dance! I bet you thought that you could choose to leave? Everybody is dead! You’re all alone and I’m the one, the only one! Yea! I’ll do whatever it takes Oh, what’s another mistake Back and forth and upside down as we laugh ourselves to sleep We’re trying to escape An evil place so full of wonder taking a hold of me... Feeling the pressure, I should be over you Slave to the pleasure, I can’t get over you Tonight we’ll try to pretend that we’re alright, yea Say its forever, don’t let me fade away Everything’s gone, everything’s lost What have I done? Can it be undone? Where did you go? Will I find you? This is our home, sweet home. The canvas went up in flames Pretty lady let’s dance! I bet you thought that you could choose to leave? Everybody is dead! You’re all alone and I’m the one, the only one! Yea! I’ll do whatever it takes Oh, what’s another mistake Back and forth and upside down as we laugh ourselves to sleep We’re trying to escape An evil place so full of wonder taking a hold of me... Feeling the pressure, I should be over you Slave to the pleasure, I can’t get over you Tonight we’ll try to pretend that we’re alright, yea Say its forever, don’t let me fade away I’m everything you want, I’m everything you need You’re everything to me, don’t let me fade away Foolish mortal, what did you think? That you’d shackle the hands of time? And defeat the Gods themselves? Sweet vanity you’re my favorite sin! Swallow mountains and choke on them Then drown yourself on Lazarus Spread your wings and grab the sun Sweet vanity you’re my favorite sin! Parting is such sweet sorrow Come back to me soon my dear I will be counting the days Farewell my love This is our home, sweet home Drench yourself in the cries of the damned! Spill their blood! Bathe in bliss as we torture the sane! Help me, God!
7.
I miss counting the stars And I miss the way you kiss me I miss the way you touch me I miss calling you mine Baby you know who I am And there’s nobody I’d rather dance with in the moonlight I just want to go back I fear the emptiness will swallow me whole This is my confession I am no hero and I’m not a saint I can’t save the world and I never asked for this In your eyes I see the questions I don’t have the answers for Arise suspicious minds You told yourself I was pure, certain that I would save you But if it crosses your mind that I was saving myself Remind yourself that I’m dangerous! Maybe I’m not as honest as it seems, a siren dressed in silk Maybe I’m just selling a lie, a villain in disguise I fear the emptiness will swallow me whole This is my confession I am no hero and I’m not a saint I can’t save the world and I never asked for this In your eyes I see the questions I don’t have the answers for Arise suspicious minds I don’t know if I’m praying, I don’t know if I’m begging But I have to believe that someone, something out there can hear me I have to know that there is a chance I have to believe that I might escape this hell I fear I’ve lost myself and I don’t know the way back the way back to what I once was Am I Fatima? Am I Rusalka? Or am I just me? Sweet, innocent Annabel. Star crossed lovers in strife embracing on a battlefield Giving in to the fight, changing at the speed of light Time to move on to another night Time to move on to another fight I fear the emptiness will swallow me whole This is my confession
8.
The Martyr 04:57
Remember why you’re here Fall for me Lay yourself before the demon Spread your legs, bite your lip, meet his eye Drooling, engorged, wide eyed, shaking, you’ve got him Don’t fall for me Don’t relent invite him to you Guide his hand, take his breath, consume him Gasping, lusting, weakened, frozen, you’ve won If you should peek beneath the veil Don’t be surprised to find me there I’m ashamed, a victim of the curse I think I like the fight Wrong feels so right, baby I’m flirting with lunacy Nothing can stop me and my sinful obsession Please don’t forget who he is, my ‘Bel. A monster who enjoys the fear Never forget what he is, my ‘Bel A monster who designed the fear Listen to me, keep your focus Your one true love waits in anguish Lick your lips as the sweat drips down and taste the torture as you crawl, begging for more, yea! I’m ashamed, a victim of the curse I think I like the fight Wrong feels so right, baby I’m flirting with lunacy Nothing can stop me and my sinful obsession Remember why you’re here I’m ashamed, a victim of the curse I think I like the fight Wrong feels so right, baby I’m flirting with lunacy Nothing can stop me and my sinful obsession
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Paradox 04:55
Dearest love, I hope this finds you well I am kidding this is probably hell Lonely stranger with a brush in hand Never saw me sneaking up on him Tonight say goodbye to what you thought you knew They’ll blame the blood spilled on you I’m closing my eyes, one more kiss before I never wake again Two moves ahead of you You are a pawn Castle now but I’m behind your king As your queen lays bleeding on the board Accept you have lost the game, misjudged your enemy Unleash the myth living in your worst fears I’m trapped! Don’t wait! Page abandoned, the stories write themselves The author lost his way again and he forgot to write the end Race towards the sun, seeing who comes undone The villainess, the broken bride, we sit and watch the world’s collide The story is ending Would you remember Joan of Arc was her flesh yet unlicked by flame? Will you remember how the waves crash on the shores of time? Who would’ve ever known that each choice made sense? Who could’ve ever known? Are we not our actions? Our lives are poetry, make them sonnets Unleash the myth living in your worst fears I’m trapped! Don’t wait! Page abandoned, the stories write themselves The author lost his way again and he forgot to write the end Race towards the sun, seeing who comes undone The villainess, the broken bride, we sit and watch the world’s collide The story is ending Why do the floorboards creak like a heartbeat This room is driving me insane What’s behind the bricks? Who’s rapping at my chamber door? Pendulum, why do you torment me? What am I saying? Have I lost my mind? I am her! No longer Fatima, goddess, light I’ve become Rusalka, demon of night! Two moves ahead of you You are a pawn Castle now but I’m behind your king As your queen lays bleeding on the board Accept you have lost the game, misjudged your enemy Don’t wait... Page abandoned, the stories write themselves The author lost his way again and he forgot to write the end Race towards the sun, seeing who comes undone The villainess, the broken bride, we sit and watch the world’s collide Page abandoned, time is ending The story is ending, make them sonnets We sit and watch the world’s collide The night that I died I had become Rusalka. I was no longer me. I was no longer Annabel. The beautiful evil coursed through my veins and I saw so clearly what needed to be done. As you lay, fast asleep, I penned her farewell and kissed your cheek. The knife felt so light in my hand, so heavy in my stomach. There is something about this room…
10.
intro On the edge of reason, beyond understanding Silent she waits, perfect oblivion She’s crawling to the end, perfect oblivion I live behind mirrors within a prison without any bars Yet I remain lost to the world In hell I’m suspended within a prism So many walls, so many years, so many lives Too often I’ve watched them die Images of yesterday feeling so far away I can’t let go of the past, the years, the sweet romance I am a ticking time bomb waiting in a trance I need you more tonight than you will ever know I swear to never forget this heartbreaking dance The hell of being trapped is simply not a match for death Heaven awaits Now I know not to be afraid of the end My love awaits, will you be there? Take me away I’m ready, I’ll be home soon Images of yesterday feeling so far away I can’t let go of the past, the years, the sweet romance I am a ticking time bomb waiting in a trance I need you more tonight than you will ever know I swear to never forget this heartbreaking dance beautiful pure silence, come on! Embrace me sweet perfect nothing swallow my fears, come on! If I had just one wish I’d choke prophets, hang angels, burn children oh, I’d drink oceans, eat the moon, flood the world, end everything breathe in, breathe out we could run far away but then how would we sleep at night? I’ve been looking for the words to say our last goodbyes Hold on to fleeting hopes that I just might survive Give in to the pleasure make it last forever Hold on hold on to everything we are
11.
Catharsis 07:16
This is the final act Please take your seats, this is the moment that you’ve been waiting for This is gonna be a wild ride! Your telltale heart is beating, unstable minds descend I’m through trying to reach you, I am the emptiness Our love will nevermore attach your soul to mine You don’t understand, time is on my side now baby And time is running out Do not believe in imitations, we have to crave a masterpiece beneath the ink We’re falling for the fiction, there’s more than meets the eye The end is dawning The sun is setting on a silent mourning Our stars aligning as universes shatter time I’m resisting reality I remember when, my love, you could stop time with just a smile Save it for tomorrow, my love I’ll regret those words forever more I danced with our accuser, murderer from the start Climbed out of Tartarus for one last night with you You don't understand we are poetry now, baby But time is running out Do not believe in imitations, we have to crave a masterpiece beneath the ink We’re falling for the fiction, there’s more than meets the eye The end is dawning The sun is setting on a silent mourning Our stars aligning as universes shatter time I’m resisting reality I remember when, my love, you could stop time with just a smile Save it for tomorrow, my love I’ll regret those words forever more The end is dawning The sun is setting on a silent mourning Our stars aligning as universes shatter time Have you ever actually seen yourself without a mirror? I must be dreaming, I drop the knife, turn and see you You can’t be me I can’t be you Oh my God! Where am I? Let me go! Let me go! Save me from this nightmare! Annabel?! I can not be lying there! My ‘Bel, you know you’re the cause of this?! If you had not left me then he would not have lost his mind If you’re seeking forgiveness you have come to the wrong place The compass spins What's that feeling in your stomach First a flutter now a shudder Creeping up your spine and now you know that something's not right Something lurking something peering inching closer inching closer Trying not to think about it trying not to think about it It's here! Foregrounds burst to nothing As symmetry explodes The Artist screams and beauty dies, his canvas rends While his easel burns He's lost everything in but one cruel instant existence swept away Did man even notice as he was erased?

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